Sunday, December 30, 2018

How we act when we care

How did God show his love for us? He sent his one and only Son into the world. He sent him so we could receive life through him.

Today I felt happy-sad thinking of Jesus dying on a cross,  appointing John to care for his mother Mary. He was God and had an enormous job to do, but he knew that her earthly feelings of loss and her vulnerable human body would remain. And he cared and he acted on his care. 

Saturday, December 15, 2018


Had a date planned with Solo for today and I'm sick. Thankfully, he's my kinda guy and our date involved eating and marathon gaming. So I could carry around my blankets and tissues. I love him. I don't know if he's as happy as he usually appears, but I hope he is. It's wonderful to be around.  Long live the Civilizations of Sumer and China and the illustrious leaders King Solo and Meg Wutang.

Friday, December 14, 2018

I find under the boughs of love and hate,
In all poor foolish things that live a day,
Eternal beauty wandering on her way.
-William Butler Yeats

Monday, December 3, 2018


Marley just came to me to ask if hobbies were part of genetics or if we learn them.

I loooove her.

Friday, November 23, 2018

Step four...

I've decided there are some things I need to put here. That I can just do both.

Sage (talking to herself in a whisper as she got ready for Thanksgiving): "...Step five eat very fancily. Step four do not eat like a cat or a dog..."

And later as we were walking out the door to go celebrate at my parents' house she yells "Happy death day turkey!" Yikes.

Saturday, November 17, 2018

I cannot convince Marley that video games can teach you things. Even though Zelda taught us that rubber is a great insulator because Link's rubber armor keeps him from getting zapped to death by electric mobs.
Sage was standing in line waiting for her turn to hold Madelyn and squeals, "OHHH I can't wait!"
Brenyn, "To hold the baby?"
Sage, "To eat the caaaaake!"

Gone awhile

When you get annoyed because you have to do schoolwork on your second favorite computer because the first hasn't had an ether net cable run to it yet after you switched Internet providers... when that happens you better not whine.

Not hungry. Not sick. Not alone or desperate.  Nagging feeling of discontent- you will not win the day. Let me not very blind to the luxuries and the blessings in my life. Let me embrace the good and cast out any that lead me wrong.

Soft pillow. Warm blanket. Rich food. Luxuries.

People I adore with me everyday, hope, joy, assurance. Blessings.

A few weeks ago I started journaling with a pen and paper. More of a prayer journal but not entirely. It has been beneficial. I can say there what I won't or can't say here. When I hurt or rage, I can do it there. Because I do hurt and rage in some moments and when I put that here, it lasts. Even after love takes the pain away and mercy removes the bad feelings, the anger stays on here. On the internet. And what is the purpose of this blog? To share, to ponder, to save? I don't know.

15 years of blogging seems like a lot. Though it was often inconsistent and did me harm as well as good. I have found friends and made enemies through blogging.  I don't need a blog for now. I do need to write, but it needs to be private. For Him and for me.

Thursday, November 1, 2018