Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Valentine's day

It's 61 degrees in February.
I gave Bob a mix tape for Valentine's Day. Marley is outside (right now at 9:30 p.m.) in the dark, deep in the yard, singing and dancing in the drizzle.

The kids and I talked about what real love is. And we read sonnet 18 from Shakespeare.  We wrote love poems. We ate ice cream from the bowls they made at pottery

Thursday, February 8, 2018

Foward Pines

Those pines with their heavy crystal burden
Crackling, are brought low.
When the crocus tucked beneath unfurls
To herald that most darling wish
When the sun again will press the earth
With heat and longer days.
Even though the rays light only the wicked ice
The pines remember that Spring will come
Cold ornamentation melting
Slowly drop by drop to soak the soil
They are warmed sufficiently to hope.

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

Murphy my bible study buddy

I believe the dire storm warnings only after Murphy turns into a giant puppy who requires protecting and shared personal space. And here he is before the winter white death has even started. Whimpering and crushing my feet.

“Sacrifice thank offerings to God,
    fulfill your vows to the Most High,
1and call on me in the day of trouble;
    I will deliver you, and you will honor me.”
 Psalm 50

Tuesday, February 6, 2018


I asked Marley to sing Sage her lullabies. Typically it's Twinkle, Twinkle and Jesus Loves Me and Wherever you go, whatever you do, I'm always going to come back for you. But not today. Today (apparently) it's Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds.

Today I had what was, essentially, an interview with a family coming to me for childcare and during the time they were here: the baby ate a Lego, Lulu had a nervous breakdown, and Solo started a kitchen fire. Pretty sure I still got the job? Unsure. My house is saturated with burnt toast stink.

Bob and I watched Thor: Ragnarok and it was pretty much the perfect movie for me. Besides Charlie's Angel's and MIB and any of the Die Hards. When I watch a movie I want to 1. Know it's fake 2. Have no feelings.

Manhji Moves a Mountain is a wonder kid's book.

Sunday, February 4, 2018


Every day I need to make choices. Every day I need to be aware of when these choices are happening; to be intentional.


Then the Lord said to Cain, “Why are you angry? Why is your face downcast? If you do what is right, will you not be accepted? But if you do not do what is right, sin is crouching at your door; it desires to have you, but you must rule over it.”
Genesis 4:6‭-‬7 NIV

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

An update on my own personal self.

I have been severely limiting my facebook use. I started on January 1st but not because it was New Year's day. It just happened to coincide with my thinking. Mostly I use it to crowdsource necessary information or to wish happy birthdays. I also got rid of Instagram and Snapchat entirely. I've also limited my Amazon use (but really that was my bankroll's decision more than mine). ;)

It's freed up some of my time. Not quite as much as I hoped as I was more of a poster than a browser, however, it has done other things for me that were unexpected. My desire for society now has to be satisfied in other ways. The other is that when I talk/brag about my children, I have to find willingly people to listen in person. It also helps me to *not* brag about my children, who I think are amazing and talented and weird and hilarious and sometimes... terrible. It has also, though I am not sure how or why exactly, given me more incentive to pursue my hobbies with greater fervor. Reading physical books more often (instead of relying on audiobooks and multi-tasking most of the time), playing strategy and adventure video games, board games, showering...

I guess I want my kids to not see my face illuminated by a screen as often. Not because the screen is bad but because I hope it leads to stronger abilities in making spontaneous conversation and relationships with people in our immediate environment even though our present culture is leading the other way.

Also I have been adding some new forms of Bible study to my usual routine. Even letting myself study Bible stuff that isn't *GASP* the actual Bible. Something I have been very hesitant to do in the past... because people and authors need almost no encouragement to get it wrong, wrong, wrong... See? I am clearly hesitant.

Also I am working on my usual extra curricular pursuits, namely art history and age appropriate  reading lists for children with material that won't condemn them to culturally enforced brain-numbness.

Note: I read Sense and Sensibility for the first time this month and... well... I didn't love it. I liked it. BUT... I guess I am a bit of a Marianne in my opinions (see above) and I didn't really connect as much with Elinor and Edward. But I loved Colonel Brandon. Possibly because I knew in the back of my mind that Alan Rickman played him in the movie (which I haven't actually seen).

Re-read Pride and Prejudice. Still loved it. Whats not to love about a super handsome and rich guy who faithfully does everything to serve your interest? #pandering

Also read/re-read Doldrums, The Keepers, and HP #1. All physical books. My arms are tired.

Being treated.

Incentive for good behavior was a promise they could pick a treat at the grocery store. Sage and Solo chose lunchables "with the drinks!" and Marley chose... smoked pig jowl. Which she later, with Bob's help, made avacado, scrambled egg, fig jam, toast with crispy pig jowl. Delicious. I didn't get any of the lunchables...

I find it particularly warms my heart when my kids find so much satisfaction from simple things. Like Solo getting his mattress off the floor...

Or by wearing a haute couture outfit inspired by Alice in Wonderland complete with rabbit tale and backward pockets and other such nice madnesses.

Sunday, January 28, 2018

Bible thinks

The Lord had said to Abram, "Leave your country and your people. Leave your father's family. Go to the land I will show you.  "I will make you into a great nation. I will bless you. I will make your name great. You will be a blessing to others.
Genesis 12:1‭-‬2 NIRV

  • Go- do something that makes you uncomfortable and isn't in line with your gut feeling or what your fickle heart is telling you.  Do it because it's God's will and for the purpose of glorifying Him. Then you will be happy you were obedient.