Friday, February 5, 2016

Recent doings.

I'm watching: Brooklyn 9-9, Sword Art Online, Grimm.

I'm reading: The Mercy Thompson series.

I'm working on: a faerie terrarium light.. Thing...

I'm reading through Exodus again.

Bob is playing poker and constantly working on growing the business where he works.  The Superbowl is at hand.

Solo is playing basketball and doing gymnastics and playing Guild Wars 2 with me.

Marley is working on violin and doing gymnastics and loves to go outside, whatever the weather.

Sage continues to be the cutest and peskiest pixie of all time.  She loves "pretties" (princesses), singing twinkle twinkle, watching Wishenpoof. 

Murphy is mad at me because I moved his couch.
Lulu loves me no matter what I do.

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

Yup dates

If I was a vehicle, I'd be one of those pickup trucks that only look better with rust on them.

A gentle spirit is an arduous uphill climb towards letting go.  And I can't help but picture sledding now that I've typed that.

Sage is coming around.  Slowly. 

All it takes is perspective to make a 50 degree day in January finer than any day in summer.

"Suppose you are offering your gift at the altar. And you remember that your brother has something against you. Leave your gift in front of the altar. First go and make peace with your brother. Then come back and offer your gift.
Matthew 5:23-24 NIRV

Thursday, January 28, 2016


The future of my life and the lives  associated with mine are known to God.  He has had a plan for me since long before my ancestors were born.  Before my  birth He knew my weaknesses and the dates and times of each of my future transgressions.  Even knowing these He orchestrated my birth, created me specifically. He did not destroy me because I was flawed, He accounted for it in His plan.  My flaws will not prevent His grace nor change the final result. 

I am instructed to have faith in these facts.
I am instructed to believe and count on His faithfulness.  My plans should be made with regard to the firm belief that He keeps His promises.

Joseph made the sons of Israel take an oath and make a promise to him. He said, "I'm sure that God will come to help you. Then you must carry my bones up from this place."
Genesis 50:25 NIRV

"... The Lord will fight for you. Just be still."
Exodus 14:14 NIRV

Monday, January 25, 2016

Solo had a dream too.

And apparently it is riding a unicorn.

Sunday, January 24, 2016


When reading about Moses and the plagues in Egypt I felt like I could relate to the Pharaoh as he went back and forth with Aaron. 

"Yes, I'll let you go.  Just get rid of these frogs... Oh the frogs are gone...  on second thought..."

I do that.  The resolutions I make as I lay in bed at night sound righteous, but when morning comes and the sun is shining before my promises are even acted upon and the reality of the work is before me...


Wednesday, January 6, 2016


On several fronts of my life I have been recently confronted by the realization that I'm not capable, nor will I have time, to do everything.  Probably, most people don't have to realize this.  I guess I didn't really need to either, but I feel like I did. Bob is capable of business venturing that I am not, Marley is beginning to be beyond my skill in violin.  I could try to keep up, probably be successful, but at the cost of other things.  It brings my role as a support person into perspective.  In You've Got Mail (a movie I watch every year around Christmas, I don't know why) the character Kathleen Kelly says that she  "lives a small life. Small but valuable." That is how I feel.

It's a humbling and good feeling.

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Christmas time is here

Happiness and cheer. 
I'm so glad that I have a loving family and good health during the holidays. My good health flagged somewhat in the middle of the night last night.  I woke up with a lot of nausea and a headache.  I was getting out of bed when I happened to look out the window.  I had to sit back down as I took in the view.  It was breathtaking.  The nearly full moon, clouds moving swiftly between us.  I couldn't look away and I couldn't help but think how such beauty was well worth the otherwise unwelcome wake-up call.  it gave me a thankful heart.

Eventually I couldn't put off getting up,  but when I returned the view was still beautiful though shifted further into the treeline.  Better still,  the mild weather meant my window was open and I could lay upside in my bed and feel the breeze on my face and watch the moon and clouds till they set.

Trying to take a photo produced a pale reflection of the scene, as is usual for night photos, especially ones of the moon.

Friday, November 20, 2015

With the words of my... hands...

So many good things that God does for me. I don't know how to talk about them because I am embarassed, afraid.

Look what God has done:

Bob works for a Christian man who loves God and cares for Bob first as a human being and not just as an asset. When the girls and I were in a car accident and we needed Bob to pick us up, Bryan told Bob to take his (Bryan's) car and to take the rest of the day off. That is not a standard benefit. God I am grateful.

I live in a country where I am not counted as a criminal (just a fool) for the way I believe. I can worship my God in public and not fear.

I get to homeschool a gentle, wise, and cooperative person whom I love. My children are healthy and have enough to eat each day. It is more than enough.

My parents have given me many gifts of their wisdom and they allow me, in many ways, to live a life richer and fuller than I otherwise could. My childhood is full of happy memories of companionship, laughs, wrestling, and God's loving guidance. So many have their roots planted in abuse and loneliness and have to wait a long time to be replanted in the good earth of God's comfort and mercy.
God permitted me to have faithful parents. I am thankful.

My husband permits me to raise our children in a faith he does not agree with. He sees it is important to me and does not naysay it. I am thankful.

There is more. A lot more. But its not for here; not right now.