Thursday, April 30, 2009

Choose Your Battles

I wish I could go to a Bible Study every night of the week. It just helps me to refocus in such an effective way. I wish I got the same spiritual renewal at church but lately (the last year+) it has done little/nothing for me. I use to be able to see how the messages pertained to my life/situation, now I dread going because I get overwhelmed (of course Marley helps that feeling). I find it very difficult to get myself there.

I suppose I could try out different churches but I don't think it is brother Greg's teachings that are the problem. He is very engaging and lively. I think the large group setting is what is holding me back. So maybe I will go get a bible study book for some private study. Maybe that will help give me some direction instead of flipping to whatever page and reading. End up with way too much Old Testament action that way.


Also the topic was raised tonight about advice. Advice is such a rosebush. I think it is just way to difficult to give sage advice without being domineering/harsh. Sometimes all you can do is steer a little and step back without actually mentioning a specific direction to go. Of course sometimes you have to step in for the good of those involved. (Luckily) these times are few and should rarely occur. Best advice for parenting that I so far know also applies to advice giving.


Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Adam Rosales

When I meet someone in real life (such as politicians, celebrities, athletes) it makes me like them better. The fact that the noob Reds player I met is totally AWESOME makes me happy. Plus when I met him he was totally humble and nice (as detailed in this link).

So yay for him smiling while he is playing (oh and winning). :)

Oh and I am completely miserable and I need to see a doctor. One that is free/cheap even w/o insurance. *Sigh* I won't put any details because it is thoroughly TMI but it sucks to be me right now.

*edit* Oh and I have only one signed baseball to my name and it's signed by Adam. Glad I didn't give it to my BIL Scott for Christmas (sorry Scott) :) :) :)

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

All over the place...

I just watched a fashion show and it was amazing! Way better then the piss poor unreal silliness you see in Europe or the states.

I also found a great website with advice for trimming the lovehandles (you know so your stupid stupid jeans would stop making you feel like you're being cut in half).

Also I overcame the temptation to get a haircut today. Well... kinda. I cut my fringe as I often do. Straight across? If you know me then you already know I never cut anything in a straight line :D

"Because no cat anywhere ever gave anyone a straight answer." - Pirate cat from the Last Unicorn.
Congrats Brenyn on finding your little fluff ball!

Monday, April 27, 2009

Talking to Jeebus

I am glad I am not where I was even if I cannot now see where I am going.

After reading part of Romans 10 (specifically Romans 10:4) which says,
"For Christ is the end of the law for righteousness to everyone who believes."
I was very confused. So I thought I better go to the old interwebs and check it out because surely people way smarter then me have been tripped up by this as well and are talking about it. Sure enough I had my questions answered in a very satisfying and revealing way. Here is what I found.

The Greek word telos, translated "end" in Romans 10:4, can convey variations in meaning, including "'the aim or purpose' of a thing" (Vine's Complete Expository Dictionary of Old and New Testament Words, 1985

So instead of end meaning the cessation of law or being above it, or rendering the law void, it means we learn the "aim or purpose" of the law. Makes a big difference does it not?
I really wish I knew Hebrew & Greek. I mean, I wish I magically (divinely?) knew them, I don't think I want to know so badly that I can actually get myself to learn them.

...Incidentally Romans 10:21 reminds me of Marley & I's current relationship as she desires to cruise and stand-up when I would prefer she sleep or eat.
But about Israel he says, "All day long I have held out my hands to a disobedient and rebellious people."

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Quotes & Pictures

"Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark, in the hopeless swamps of the approximate, the not-quite, the not-yet, the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish, in lonely frustration for the life you deserved, but have never been able to reach. Check your road and the nature of your battle. The world you desired can be won. It exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours." -Ayn Rand

So I know I have posted this picture before but it is one of those things that never fails to make me smile. That "you are the sunshine of my life" song pops into my head when I look at her face in this picture.


I really feel like I should recover my playstation 2 from Harper and Steve while it still has a little life left in it. I really want to play Disgaea again. Because irreverent and cheeky demons are cute when it's in the context of puzzle adventure.

Summer Reading

My summer reading list is getting lengthy. I just started testing out Ken Follett's 'A World Without End'. So far there is way to much sex in it. Not the lovey dovey kind either. It is the beer-wench on a bar stool kind... gross.

I have just added "Don't Cry" (Gaitskill) to my list. Here is an exerpt:

My husband Thomas had died six months before the trip to Addis Ababa. The music that woke me that first day touched my grief even before I knew it was wedding music. Even in my sleep I could hear love in it; even in my sleep, I could hear loss. I stepped out of the hotel in a state of grief, but when I saw the brides and grooms in their happiness, wonder slowly spread through my grief. It was like seeing my past and a future that was no longer mine but that I was part of anyway.

also "Important Artifacts & Personal Property from the Collection of Lenore Doolan & Harold Morris, Including Books, Street Fashion & Jewelry" (Shapton). Though this looks less like reading and more like coffee table paraphernalia.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Just a little blah blah

This creates equal parts revulsion and attraction (link).


I love that I helped create my favorite person in the world. The way she is starting to play with toys the way they were intended to be played with. Cognitive play = my genuine amazement.

~Edit: to add the blinkie I got for Marley's "Biggest Hat Collection".

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Stupid Vampires.

(Mom & Dad feel free to see the justice of this situation.)

Relationships > Objects

I keep repeating this over and over in my head because it is the only thing keeping me from breaking Murphy's neck right now. Yesterday there was a good 2 hours and 10 bucks put into fixing the screen in the screen door. I was going to put a metal protective grate over it but it is too late... Murphy tried to run through it in pursuit of a squirrel this afternoon. So... frustrating. I know he could not see it but.... ARGH.

But the one day with a screen door... amazing.
Also we are going to extend the fenced in area in the backyard. Yay! This should discourage foot traffic (people shortcut through) and also give us more usable space.

I desperately want to play video games. Someone hold my baby and give me a playstation controller.

On my Firecrackers' Forum (for moms of babies born in July 2008) Marley got "Biggest Hat Collection" for our Who's Who "Contest". 24 hats (though not all fit anymore) (but I didn't even count the non-hat items I always put on her head)!

We got to hang out with Erin and Noah today! I missed them! Sometimes Erin and I are so on the same page it is scary, but I guess with kids SO close in age, how could we not have stuff in common? Marley wore her pink bib overalls and Noah happened to be wearing blue ones. We decided that only added to the photo-worthiness of the occasion. So what did we do? The only thing that made sense. We stripped off their undershirts, pulled out twin rocking chairs and used belts to strap the babies to the chairs while we took pictures.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Marley is 9 months and 1 day old. She has been outside the womb for longer then I was pregnant (technically). She crawls, she tries to stand, she eats some things from my plate. We've made it so far, only a lifetime left to go.
9 months ago :

2 weeks ago :

Monday, April 13, 2009

I twitter now. Though I do not feel it is a substitute for blogging.

Spread the word on this fact...
1. something that actually exists; reality; truth: Your fears have no basis in fact.
2. something known to exist or to have happened..
3. a truth known by actual experience or observation; something known to be true.
4. something said to be true or supposed to have happened.

I did some gardening today. I need help though. I am a super novice AND I cannot seem to free my hands up long enough to really do much. Grrrr.

Sunday, April 12, 2009


He is risen!

As a celebratory gesture I have chosen the cutest photographs from earlier today. Be warned... These may cause dizziness, shortness of breath and minor seizures. Still worth it!

~These are the eggs that Grandpa-Bob, Gigi, Baba, Marley & I made.

~Marley in her easter bonnet with all the frills upon it.

~Babies in a hammock!

And I feel I should announce that Marley not only started crawling on Saturday night but she also decided to start pulling herself into the standing position... oh and she's writing a book.

I decided since she is mobile now I can have her do a little electrical work.

Friday, April 10, 2009

About Twilight...

Ok... I know for some of my friends this will sound like blasphemy and for some people this will just be more Twilight-related bologna. I have to get this out.

First of all... if you are not familiar with Twilight I will sum it up. A series of novels, turned movie about a likable girl who isn't super popular and not necessarily the prettiest who for whatever reason becomes the romantic obsession of an attractive, romantic, heart-of-gold and oh-so-dreamy vampire guy. Basically it is the newest wave in psychotic fangirl paraphernalia. It is DRIVING ME CRAZY.

I see signature pix on forums, women who are otherwise intelligent and reasonable people who are obsessed with how wonderful Vampire boy is. All over the internet is endless fan fiction, photos, and pining for a love like the one in the movie/books.

I have news for all you people who are out of your gourds. IT IS FICTION. IT IS FICTION THAT SHOULD HAVE A TARGET AUDIENCE OF TEENAGE GIRLS. In fiction things seem way different because why Ivana?

“Fiction writing is great. You can make up almost anything.” - Ivana Trump (another genius)

I just feel like all of these crazy fangirls are basing their expectations for real love on this... totally unreasonable version in these books. They become disappointed because their poor real life Joe Shmoe does not mutter words of endearment the way Edward (Vampire boy) does to his lovely Bella (Miss Mediocre). Of course Joe Shmoe does not have a omniscient woman writing his lines for him nor does he come with a soundtrack... oh and he cannot fly (not even a little).

They all want a big strong vampire boy to protect them and woo them. Argh, I am so annoyed I cannot rant coherently.

I suppose it does not help that I think the guy who plays Edward in the movie is not at all attractive and I have to see his face all over. I prefer him as the charming (and doomed) Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter.

So quit telling me to read all the books, quit trying to make me watch the end of the movie and keep all your photoshopped Twilight Wallpapers to yourself.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Life Babblating

All human beings should try to learn before they die what they are running from, and to, and why. -James Thurber

I think I am running from sadness, meaninglessness, boredom. What I am running to changes semi-frequently. Though I would hope that I am pointed in the general direction of God and love. As for why... That is either the easiest part to answer or the hardest. Because it is the right thing to do? Because it is my instinct to do it?

Of course I saw this quote on Google right after I got done Google image searching Paris Hilton's Hair. Not sure where that is getting me on my path away from meaninglessness...

When does 'never leaving good enough alone' become just thinking 'the grass is always greener'?

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

This is my humble (yet completely accurate) opinion.

Very cool link to a video of a 'sliding house'. Proof that great things come from designers who are "prepared to be radical."

Marley & I went to the library to put a hold on a few books. I could do it on the internet but my provisioning was all messed up and I like to get out of the house anyway. Anyhow, we were at the library and I was overwhelmed (as usual) by the changes that have been going on.

The inevitable dying out of the librarian. Well that is not entirely accurate. At least all highly trained librarians seem to be gone (or going). At the library you look for your own books (after you wait an hour for one of the people checking 'Facebook' to move along), you check out, renew, place holds... all without the help of a librarian. The strange part is that there are still plenty of people who appear to be employed by the library. What they actually DO, I do not know.

There was one man who was working and he was positively yelling and carrying on like a salesman. Antithetical behavior to the library setting and he was DRIVING ME NUTS.

So bid adieu to libraries as you knew them.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Not the Gatekeeper but...

Anybody have a bunch of old keys they don't want/need anymore? Or does anyone know where I would be able to find some (preferably for free).

Mom- this picture is for you since I don't know what two nights of crappy poo poo weather will do to your rose.

Also... Marley pooped on your carpet.

Saturday, April 4, 2009


So last spring I had a run-in with some serpent visitors, loyal readers from livejournal may remember me ranting about having too much wildlife in my life at the time.

Well it is a new spring. But I am pretty sure these are the same snakes. Living in the same bushes and vines as last time. All I want to do is deleaf! I took that picture this morning when I was trying to get Marley & I to Oxford in a reasonable amount of time. I saw these two spooning in the early afternoon sun. Gross.

Baby hair.

We are making efforts to grow some hair. The more hair she gets the more it sticks out in every which way. :D

I am staaaaaaarving. I wish Bob would show me how to make a delicious meal out of a carrot, a lb. of coffee and a bucket.

Thursday, April 2, 2009

Widmer Murder

I had not even heard of this case till this evening. An hour or so after the sentencing.

What a sad story. I cannot tell if I am biased because I have a daughter or what but I read the whole blog and I get a heartache and I feel that he may very well be rightly accused and convicted. Her poor family, sitting in that court... seeing those horrible pictures. Unimaginable. Makes me want to move somewhere where no one can get to my family. To bad that place does not exist and I have responsibilities to the rest of mankind :/ His poor family. How do you reconcile your son being convicted of murder and put in jail for at least 15 years? How do you sleep at night?

Sign me up for another week of hermit-style living.